Thi was here

Enjoy lifes simplest things. Have you ever ridden a bike up to the hills just to view the sunset or sunrise? Go to the beach and watch the waves? There's no excuse to not find that thinking place. No ride? Get a ride. Take the bus. Ride your bike. You prefer thinking at home? Go for it.

Do whatever you want.

I've mistaken changingbeing yourself with keeping yourself busy.

Lately I've been trying to fill myself up with work that will benefit me in school etc.

But I've miss the main reason--indeed be happy

By the middle of the day I would think to myself, "What do I do now?"

Okay. Let me rephrase that. I am not trying to change myself. I'm trying to change my corrupted view that made me narrow-minded.

Like I said in my past entry:

"Society making people narrow-minded--I fit that category."

It was always about trying to fit in. Trying to be loved. Have a good physical image about yourself. We all have forgotten the most important thing--ourselves.

What happened to us? What happen to you? What happened to me? Whose fault is to blame? The media? You? Me? Our peers?

Constantly thinking about:

"Do you think I'll look good in this?"

"I wonder what they'll think of me."

"I'm to emberassed to do this."

"If I join/leave this then they'll think I'm lame."

"They won't be my friend anymore."

"That'd be funny but it's not me to do that."

"I want to fit in."

"If you release yourself in the world as you are, someone is going to see how special you are, catch you, and never let you go.."

We all simply try to fit in. So we end up being something people want to see. But they don't see a you, me, or Trisha.

".. But if you pretend to be someone else, they won't love you. They will love the person you're not," Elvis.

There's no reason to be emberassed. No reason to have insecurities. They just hold you back. As Vincent would say..

"If you see a hot person, go up to them and do something. If they reject you, then that's okay. Just know one thing--you weren't afraid or anything."

He said something like that.

"You only have one life. Why stay back? Do what you want to do."

Materialistic things should not be the reason why you smile.